Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Two words.

So, it didn't happen last week. But it happened tonight.

I set a goal for September 18, and when Sebastien weighed me for the first time tonight , I hit it right on the nose.

Talk about precision. How very 'Virgo' of me!

He then had me step on the scale for a second time, so that I could get a copy of the printout for myself. And on the second weigh in, I passed the goal by almost another pound.

I'll take either one.

So how do I feel?


And so I should. I worked my ass off to get to this place. And even though I've arrived at this amazing milestone -- I haven't weighed this much since my second year of university (1993... that's 15 years ago) -- I've got so much more ahead of me. But I'm not going to worry too much about that right now. I'm going to bask in the glow of my accomplishment. I'm going to savour the feelings of pride, satisfaction, and elation. Almost a year to the day that I first met Sebastien for my consultation, I've shattered my own expectations. I'm pretty sure I blew his out of the water too.

So here's the progress I've made.

I've lost 137 pounds since I weighed my heaviest (January 07-ish)
I've lost 125 pounds since I made the choice to take control and get healthy (December 07)

Since the time that I started letting Sebastien weigh and measure me for progress, I've lost:
  • 100 pounds of fat (since June 08)
  • 51 inches of fat from my body (since October 08)
  • The feeling that I don't have control of my own life.

Since that same time, I've gained:
  • An unmeasured amount of muscle.
  • The admiration of my friends and people around me.
  • The ability to look at myself in the mirror and like what I see.
  • A renewed sense of pride and love for who I am in this crazy crazy world.
And to celebrate all I've accomplished, I'm gonna have a beer. And I want you to have one, too. One of the best things about all this hard work, is that I've never completely deprived myself of anything. One night a week (normally the night I train with Sebastien), I indulge. I eat pizza. Or, I have a burger (from Square Boy on Danforth... they deep fry the bacon!!! Grrrr....) I always give myself the opportunity and the permission to indulge, and enjoy the things I crave. Ironically, giving in for that one night a week makes me crave those bad things less and less.

So, tonight, I'm having a beer.
And it has never tasted sweeter.

And that's pretty much all I have to say right now. Words cannot describe how I feel.

Actually, they can. Two words do it. Plain and simple:

Kia kaha.

These words have never meant more to me than they do right now. Love and gratitude to my sister for giving me the gift of the knowledge and power of these two words.

Love and props to the folks at Riverdale Fitness who make me feel incredible and supported every time I walk through the door for my workouts 6 days a week.

Love and admiration to friends, family, co-workers, and random blog readers for support and encouragement.

Love and respect to Sebastien for helping me to find the immeasurable strength and determination to conquer my greatest challenge, face my biggest fear, and be my best possible self.

That said, I'm gonna go enjoy my beer.

Stay strong, dear friends. Stay strong.

PS. Added on May 7 -- the beer might have been a bit stale, as it has been in my fridge for almost a year. LOL! But the fried chicken (NOT KFC) I had afterwards more than made up for it.... Back to the grind!!!

PPS. Some of you have asked what Seb thinks about my blog. He started his own a while back, and click here for his thoughts on me hitting my goal.


  1. Holy holy holy crap! September is MONTHS away!! You obviously had NO idea you could do this! You've completely amazed yourself even! Certainly you've amazed me! Good for you! I hope that beer was of a quality brand :o) Keep up the good work!

  2. Pat & Marion McGrathMay 6, 2009 at 7:27 PM

    This is fantastic..WoW!!What an achievement. Your journey has been so trmendous. It has strengthened your spirit and your body. We always love you and admire all your efforts..but what you are doing now leaves us without word. ( I know quelle surprise!)More kleenex please! I (Mom) won't run the 1/2 marathon with you but I will be at the finishing line to cheer you across. (God, I hope The Bay isn't open that day!) Chris,no listening for the "Dickie Dee Man" and no crying for ice cream. You are not at Afton park now.L.Mom & Dad

  3. Dear Chris,
    I'm sitting in the Tokyo airport crying reading this latest blog. You've done what most people will never do, what I never could do. We have had different weight loss journeys, but I know how you must be feeling. I actually don't know what to say other than "way to go", but that doesn't seem to really befit the situation.

  4. Chris, I am so glad that I finally clicked on your blog tonight, I am moved to tears. You deserve to celebrate and I hope that soon we can get together and chat so that I can share with you all the things that my emotion is not allowing me to say at the moment.

    stay well friend

  5. My dear dear brother,
    You are "O" for awesome as a "famous" kiwi once said... he now advertises corned beef and had his face on the side of a truck..Hmmmm. Could have probably picked a better person to quote.

    Was already weepy reading the blog and then to see my name.... you are an inspiration and I want to thank you for being strong enough to do this on your own.

    Kia Kaha has never rung more true.

    All my love,
    Kia Kaha my dear "little" brother,
    xoxooAndrea and the family

    P.S. Madeline says you look like a kid.

  6. That is unbelievable! I am amazed that you have come so far in such a short space of time. Love reading your blog, just goes to show what anyone can achieve if they really put their mind to it and how we can all take control of our own destiny if we have the strength and determination to do so. I really wish you all the best on the rest of your journey and hope that you achieve all the things that you are striving for! Hope you keep up the momentum or as the say here "keep your boot to the back of the headlight"..if that makes sense?

    All the best, lots of love


  7. Congratulations Chris! So happy that you look and feel amazing! Keep up the great work! So proud of you... can't wait to see you soon.


  8. Nice going. Congrats.

  9. Chris, you are a true inspiration....and all with a smile:-) AWESOME!!!!!!