Friday, December 12, 2008

58th and goal... 33rd and goal... a touchdown overall.

Well, that was my best attempt at a sports analogy... I think it has something to do with football. Who really cares what it's from. More importantly....

This time last year, I made a decision to start looking after myself -- to start getting healthy. I gave myself some deadlines. I set many small goals. I have overcome many fears. I have shrunk in many ways (physically). I have grown emotionally in so many more.

All that said, 12 months after I made the most important decision in my life, I've met my goal goal. This time last year, I was 58 pounds heavier than what I am right now. At that time, I gave myself permission to start getting healthy, and six months later, made another important decision Six months ago, I met Sebastien and hired him as my trainer. He helped me overcome so many of my fears, and see the very real possibilities of what I could accomplish. He helped me to set some realistic goals. Off the start, they were:
  • to get more comfortable with being active;
  • to find some physical activity that I enjoyed doing;
  • to not be so hard on myself;
  • to lose 30 pounds in six months.
Well, since I hired Sebastien six months ago, I've lost 33 pounds. Goal surpassed by 3 pounds. In some ways, I'm starting to lap myself -- hey, look at that, another sports analogy. How very butch of me.... LOL!!!!

So, I'm happy to report that:
My girth measurements are shrinking. We're doing measurements next week -- I'll be sure to let folks know where I'm at then.
My confidence and sense of self are growing -- I now no longer worry if people are looking at me because I'm big. I just assume that now they see someone who's happy, confident, and healthy. Screw them if they think anything other than that.
I can't remember the last time I was in a bad mood -- and my relationships with friends and family are so much more fulfilling.
This is the first time that I can ever recall saying, with absolute honesty, that I'm happy with who I am -- and my relationship with myself has never been better.

Pretty f**king cool, eh???
Not much more to say than that.

Kia kaha.
Stay strong.